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| sorry guys... i really think that i m trying to make myself look happy & feel happy...but i fail to do so... i m feeling so empty and lonely now.... who can lend me a shoulder? i dun need a ears... cuz i m sure u guys r all sick of hearing my random thoughts..
Friday nite, in here alone. didnt have dinner, as i dun feel like i wanna eat anything...just feeling tire. i m really tire in both mentally and physically...feeling tire of the hk living style, tire of my work, my company.... n mayb EVERYTHING. i m still thinking... should i...really look forward in Nov. as i planned to quit my job n start my break to vancouver. but then... no work = more time to think about things.....
m i really thinking too much?...
what's wrong wif me.... yes those r my random thoughts... do u know i m upset? i guess not.
anyhow, thanks berber, iris, ivan, mabel, sandy, edmund...
berber... i wont do any silly things...
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| 您們都過得很快樂吧...
過得不快樂的 只有我一個人嗎?
我也很想過得快樂
不接電話 不回留言
不想上街 不約會朋友
其實都是又再自閉 封鎖自己
我知
我是活該 明知有些事是不會改變
but still forcing myself walking against my faith
i know i m torturing myself...
星期六晚上 一個人在這裏
看著窗外下著雨 看著窗外的途人
想想自己現在的生活
毎天工作 坐地鐵 一個人上班 下班
想好好停下來 想想
我要的生活
想知道屬於自己的工作機會何時出現?
想要知道哪個
想呵護 會很想愛我
很想照顧我下半生的人 到底會是誰?
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| | Recently feelings |
lost, stress and depress
| relationship |
problem at the moment seems to be solved... and i dun wanna think about it anymore. yes, maybe i have thought about it too much. yes, maybe i have lost the trust & faith between our love. there could be so many reasons to explain the cause of the "problem" at the first place. anyhow, i dun want to think about it anymore. there's way too many things that bother me.
| career/ work |
yes. FRUSTRATION. after being working for this company for about a while, feeling no matter what you do, your works are just not being appreciated.
| family |
i miss my family so much... but i just couldn't have the time to take a long leave. i love you all.
YES, all i do is kept complaining about my life... not being treated fair, blaming my luck... and the more i think about it... i was driving myself into a blind alley. but now... i think i have finally open up my mind. Not to blame about my bad luck anymore. And when i step out those negative thoughts, i realized that my situation wasn't so bad at all.
though at work nothing really contributed, at least i was in the field that i dream to work for. the company is a multinational company. i know contribution needs time to slowly develop in career path. you can't just simply take one step and believe that can get you to the top. relationship, you can't look upon & expect too much to be happen in the future when you have no idea what will happen to your life next. so i have concluded to enjoy it, enjoy the moment and steps...
一切都想太多了.
享受過程, 如果真的努力了而沒有结果 那就沒辦法.
就好像我和你,如果努力了而沒结果. 就當美好回憶吧!
我會感謝你多年來在我身邊陪伴著我長大.
感謝你給我的歡樂,悲傷,支持,鼓勵...
i will remember you and love you as always
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| 頹然在梯間落淚
你在從前熱戀 定必跑過來追
體貼地扶我歸去
也及時認錯 發誓最深愛是誰
明明在等你來追
但回望不見搜索隊
心 經已逐級沉下去
做了幾年情侶 還是有一天淡下去
頹然在梯間落淚
要是談情越久 越顯得淡如水
相愛但嫌棄相聚
下半生可以放心 倚靠著誰
情人若不會來追
是時候該決定也許
走 心已受傷回不去
遊戲太累 哭累了好想回家去
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